today...

it's the last day of 2008... yet again, it's 3 person's birthday. serene, wayne and mich's birthday... we're having potluck at serena's house today. will be taking curry, fried bee hoon and some pig trotters along. =)
recently found the westlake sec sch group... oh my, i found so many of my old frens! good to see them again, some are very successful in their careers while some are happily married with kids. so envy...
started mapling again... now at lv24 of my pirate career. =)
update again after today ya...
happy 2009!

boxing day

the day after christmas... it's boxing day. the day which is meaningful to 2 person.. my niece, rebecca's 21st bday and a friend, kenny's bday.
on this 8th boxing day that we're together... i've finally realised that i wasn't so impt to you after all. maybe my value had deteriorated over the years... i dunno. but u stay forever in that high position u've got in my heart. this valentine's and christmas... i got nothing from the person i loved. no momento.. no keepsake.. nothing. yes, u read right... NOTHING. =( i can't help it... but to let my tears fall down my cheeks. i gave you a christmas gift... our lavigne girl. u... gave me nothing. u even tried to stinge on our anniversary dinner. i've given up hope that you'd ever give me a surprise... a dinner at some romantic place... a unforgetable experience of my life. yet, the most memorable christmas i had with you was driving thru and admiring the most beautiful lights ever lighted up on orchard road. we both just started working and were so broke coz we spend every single cent on maintain the dream car we had then. no gift exchanges... no friends to celebrate with coz they were either all against our relationship or too neutral. but i enjoyed every single minute with you then. we were poor but happy... now, i prob expected more. u earned more than me now... but you cldn't even bear to buy me something which you know i will like. =( you thought it was a waste of money.
you are cold to me now which i couldn't take it. after 8 years together... i hate to admit but your feelings for me had really faded. our relationship really can't take the storm created by your mom? you thought i was being rude to her... din you? have you ever thought that she was rude and insulting to me first? and you shld noe how she had insulted me when u wanted to be with me 8 yrs ago.
now i have come to realised... that i m not of the same value as 8yrs ago. i m sad, but for the sake of my 2 kids i want to be strong. i m ready to give you up if you ever think that you can't live with me anymore. i wish you had thought of how hard i fought the battle to be with you. i gambled with my life just to be with you. which is why i always wished that you wld appreciate me more.
as dal always said... you must be so good that your the other half took advantage of you. yes... socially my status was insult to you. but emotionally, i was too good for you. i hope i wasn't too thick skinned to say that. =( the most depressing christmas season i had, but i will always love christmas day. =/
pls... pray for strength for me, your vulnerable friend. i hope i dun fall deep into depression. i hope for all to disappear... i hope for motivation to carry on. i will always love you as i love our lovely kids, ashton n lavigne. i hope you do too.

it's x'mas time again!

it's xmas eve again... a year passed with a blink of the eye. =)
i woke up rather 'early'... told didi about the lappy i was eyeing on. he read the specs and tot it was quite good but had reservations abt it. din wan to invest then find the wireless too slow SO he made me buy it first. LOL... was pestering me to go sim lim the whole 10mins, offering to send me there to purchase it. keke... i oredi intended to buy it, good that he made tat offer. i dun have to wait for mark to be back to go there to buy and have mark nagging in my ear that the parking charges there can kill ppl. =/
didi was the one who pestered me to hurry up so that he cld take me to sim lim to get my lappy, in the end i was the one waiting for him to 'make up'. =/ got there, had our lunch and off we went shopping for my lappy. from the ground level we asked... the prices got discounted more as we ascend the levels. LOL... $758 w/o ram upgrade on the ground level... to $749 with ram upgrade. mai ko tu liao... i went to the atm at the ground floor again to withdraw $$ and got the $749 deal. now... i m blogging away on my new little netbook. so cute.. the keys are so nice to type. unlike the macbook keys, all spaced out like the sony vaio. but even the vaio is better to type on. =)





later in the day, the guys came over for party. mini affair... with gift exchanges and presents for the kids. see the pics... ashton & lavigne's presents from ah kim, aunties n uncles. ashton was delighted! the girls stayed around gossiping... wat else, abt their in laws and hubby probs lah. me leh... was busy with my lappy, ensuring that it cld sure the louis vuitton website. LOL... so, flash player n java wasn't downloaded... i had to do it myself. keke... so happy with my new lappy now that i neglected my camera. so little pics.. =(

Lavigne's full mth

2 days after i switch lavigne to Nan HA 1, her outbreak cleared. =) i was grinning from ear to ear in the middle of the night was feeding her milk and examining her face. can't help but feel good that i managed to switch her from S26 Gold to Nan and that move cleared her face of the pimples. she managed to 见人 without getting neg comments that she's having a outbreak on her face. LOL...
we celebrated her full month yesterday... woke up early in the morning to find it raining slightly. =/ had to go temple to 还神 to 注生娘娘 for she had really blessed my lil girl with safe delivery and good health. =) after which we dropped by the 24hr ntuc to get beer for the celebration later. went back, dropped mum n ashton, settled the beer in the ice box and we went out again to collect the sweetest moments cakes. circled 3 times before we found the shop. =.=
din have the egg bathing for lavigne.. it was cold coz still raining. will do it on wed instead.. the actual day of her full mth.
settled her insurance too... nt long after the buffet came. then alot of ppl came! lol... din have the energy to take pics though. =/
so no pics to post lah.. hahaha.

poor thing...

lavigne's having difficulties falling aslp. =/ fed her 90ml of milk... she couldn't sleep and i tot she was still hungry. after an hr or so.. i gave her another 60ml but she only managed to finish off about 30ml. filled to the brim i tot... then all of the sudden, she threw up all her milk! it flowed out of her nostrils too and she was almost choking... she gave me a huge fright and i immediately put her upright... only then she managed to catch her breathe and started to pant hard.
she scared the daylights out of me lor... so i dare not give her too much milk le. thankfully... after her bath she fell aslp till rather late then woke up for milk. fed her another 80ml and after tat she fell aslp again just after midnight. for the next 2hrly, she woke for milk and fell aslp soon after feeding. *phew*
i was rather concerned about her throwing up coz she never threw up since birth... and the outbreak she has on her face. took her to doc heng, alamak... she's allergic to cow's milk lah. haiz... have to mix HA milk for her to reduce the 'pimples'. got a mild body wash, 2 types of creams and kena killed for all those at $110.00.
mei ah... please dun fall sick again lah... mummy cannot tahan le leh. =/
oh ya.. did i mention tat she's put on 1kg since birth? =) she looks so chubby now.

LV's 3 weeks old...

hooray... Lv's 3 wks old le. this signifies tat her full month is near... and my full mth too. LOL... i'll be able to drink my iced cold coke too... bathe as and when i like. =D
after paying the docs' abt 400 bucks in total... ashton finally recovered. still having runny nose though. at least the stomach flu is gone... it's real heartbreaking to see him getting the runs and vomitting. and the worse is, he can't even drink milk! milk is the only meal he gets daily... he dun eat rice or anything else only milk. finally it's all gone... no more diarrhoea no more vomitting! but we still dunno who brought the virus home.. maybe is me? =P my bro also got the virus... mark also got it.
lv is growing very well.. drink more milk than ashton when he was a baby. i m glad to just feed her whenever she wants... grow ok my dear? looking forward to her full month this sunday. =)

Ashton's sick!!!

for 3 consecutive days... i brought ashton to the doc. =( not because im too rich lor... simply because my ashton was sick. in these 3 days, more than $200 bucks gone... and i have to pacify him wif toys.
recently, my bro pointed out tat ashton might be jealous of lil LV... LV is the short form for Lavigne. Uncle Johnson gave de nickname... coz it's my fav brand too. like tat also can... cant tahan him. keke...
ashton's become more rude and defiant... i practically have to scream at him to get him to go for his baths and to take his medications. he will give u all sorts of excuses so tat he need nt go for his baths... like tummyache lah.. fingers so pain u noe...
how to let him noe tat mummy n daddy still loves him as much as we used to? we dun just love mei mei leh... he's my first born and he had my full attention for 3 yrs, how can i just dun love him all of a sudden?
im at a lost now...
only god can help now.
=(

am i getting the blues?

i tot i wont be getting it since it's my second child. i was in fact confident tat he wld nt let me get it... i was wrong. no doubt he was more concern about lavigne and will help me change her diapers and feeds... i m still getting bouts of it occassionally. =(
today, i m supposed to go to LV hilton for their xmas party... and also to buy his xmas pressie. ashton fell sick, vomitting n diarrhoea... i couldn't go. he leh... might as well, could come back to take us to the doc.. ask me to ask my bro. haiz...
i felt so burdened... coz i feel he din care. i sensed jealousy in ashton.. he's getting more defensive and rude.. he must have felt tat we loved lavigne more. no... i love u all the same, ashton... u're my first born and how can i nt love you? i nursed u since the day u were born u noe? well, his father came home late... very late. last min then inform me tat he's having dinner wif his customer. true or not.. i m too tired to find out. or was he out wif the guys drinking?
all the full mth celebration... seems to be only me preparing for it. coz i couldn't wait for lavigne to be a mth old... so tat i could get out of the house! he came back late... din reply to my sms.. din ans my calls etc. i was damn pissed... and felt the blues setting in...
i m at the same time worried too... i tot i felt the bump on ashton's head.
going to check his head out again.. =/
for the next few posts... dun think will have anything good to blog about. read if u wan to... otherwise, keep yr blardy mouth shut. yes, i dun take negative comments nw... thanks.